About Me

Just another IT worker who was outsourced. I got unemployment for awhile but then it ran out. Now, I am just trying to survive. (** Update - I am no longer homeless. Read blog to see the progression**) Since I became homeless I spend most of my time driving my beater around northern NJ, job hunting, blogging, and sleeping in parks or in my car at night. The rest of the time I devote to keeping all of my old projects, ideas, and dreams alive. Other than advertisements,all of the links and graphics on this site have been created by me and reflect my various projects and accomplishments over the years. The point is, even though my formal IT career is apparently gone, I hold out hope that my “Cloud Computing” projects or OLAP application will right the ship for me. I am pinning all my hopes on these so you will find links and articles scattered around the site and in the posts. There may be some who wind up here for reasons of employment or homelessness. Others may stumble on this site because of some linkages to stock market indicators and data. Others may stumble here because they are interested in Cloud Computing. Whatever the reason, I feel that my situation and ruminations may resonate with all people who come here, especially with others like myself. Continued below...

About Me Continued

Not having blogged before I actually look forward to the prospect of sharing ideas and experiences with others who may have suffered a similar fate – not just in the world of IT and outsourcing, but in a larger, more profound way. People who have suffered, lost, fought, triumphed, and perhaps fallen again. People who find themselves contemplating mortality, the past, present, future, the fate our country, and countless other things. I will often include photos or video in the posts if I feel they may enhance them in some way. As long as my laptop and car don’t let me down, I still have the wherewithal and means to keep fighting. I am always in the debt of those who leave their wireless routers in their default state (linksys + no encryption). Hotspots like coffee shops and bookstores also prove useful to me but at the same time, I believe that keen observers can tell that I am homeless no matter how hard I try to conceal it. This is a constant source of stress and embarrassment. I sincerely believe that this blog will ultimately have a happy ending. Frankly, the longer I continue this, the worse it will be for me.

**Telechart**

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How Many Times?

Another pin pushed into the already well-perforated cushion I call my “love life.”

I run into her at the bottom of the stairs of my condo. She’s walking her little Yorkie puppy. Attractive, dirty blonde, nice body, a nice age for me, kids grown and gone, seems interested.

Things seem to progress nicely. I pick up the little dog (ignoring the urine which I at once feel on my left hand) and the conversation flows naturally. I then ask her into my condo because she expresses in interest in doing so.
Little Yorkie follows us in and everything is good. After awhile she asks if I would like to see her condo which is actually right around the corner – the exact same building in fact. Anyway, things going well and she is offering me coffee or water etc…
The conversation turns to dating, and how hard it is to meet someone. She makes references to creeps on the online dating sites. She then asks whether I am married or have children and I tell her no and no.
She began to talk about her car and how she didn’t like it. She always liked sports cars. So, I mentioned that she would really have liked my old car – a Mazda RX-8. At this, she spilled her coffee all over the kitchen. Unbelievably, she went on to tell me that HER LAST car was a Mazda RX-8. Now, in all the years since that model came out, I have only ONCE seen a woman driving one. Not only did she have one, she had a green one like mine, same year, sport package with spoiler, same interior. The odds of this might be 1/1,000,000. Something about a woman driving a car like that is very sexy to me. The thought that she had the exact same car was surreal and, I suspected she felt the same way.
A pleasant hour of conversation passes and she volunteers to help me put stuff into my car. (I have sold the Kia and purchased a new sports car – more on this in a different post). I thought this to be a nice gesture but was quite blown away when she then volunteered to take a couple of the larger items and put them in her car and take them down to my new apartment. This is at least 1 hour out of her way – a 2 hour round trip from either home or work.
Things wrapped up with my getting her phone number and telling her I would call.

A couple of days later I called her and got one of the coldest, most unmistakable blow offs in my life.

How can one ever make sense of a thing when there are no consistent behaviors or results? It’s like trying to exist in a world where the laws of nature are constantly changing.

I deleted her from the cell phone and hope to avoid running into her again before I move…lest I loose my tongue.

3 Responses to “How Many Times?”

  • Survive Unemployment:

    Wait a minute — you bought a sports car? I thought you were outsourced and homeless! Holy cripes, I have to read through this blog and see how you did it. Compelling.

  • eh:

    Forget about it. You're better off alone. Every man is. Don't confuse a desire for sex with a non-existent need for dating or 'companionship'. Once you cleanse your mind of all that, you can enjoy the freedom.

  • Rob:

    Yeah dude. As they say, "the grass is always greener on the other side". I guess I have to try and think about the other side. I forgot about her already which is good. Thanks

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